I am not sure if the title is appropriate or not but here I go... three and 1/2 things that have taken hold of my emotions in the last few days. Yesterday Nat got home from school and was very excited to show me the artwork she did in art class. It was very neat and I could tell it was a lot of fun. Well as the night progressed, Jack ate it. Yep, 50,000 pieces later, Nat found it. She wailed, not cried, wailed to the point that my heart ached for her. She was truly heartbroken and I grabbed it up really fast and threw it away to keep her from having to look at it. She said, " I really worked hard on that and they don't have anymore." Daddy was out of town and we had called him to say goodnight and she told him all about it. He asked her if we could tape it. ( A thought I had never had due to the severity of the dog chewing!) She told him, "no, you haven't seen it, it's in too many pieces." After we hung up, I thought, maybe I could tape it and dug it out of the trash and began to see if any of it still went together. Well, lesson # 1, perseverance! I did it and 30minutes later...a brand new masterpiece. I practically had to wake her up to see it but it was well worth it. She looked at me with great satisfaction and rolled over and went to sleep. Life lesson 1 1/2...husbands can really have good ideas!!!
Then the second lesson. I walked to the bus this morning and the bus driver asked me if it was my mom that got Nat on the bus a few mornings a week. I said, "yes" and she said, she sent me the sweetest card and told me she was praying for me. Tell her I am going to Lexington tomorrow and will let her know how it goes. They have already developed a relationship and mom knows all her health problems because Nat had a substitute driver one day. That's my mom! At this moment my mother is lying in the hospital with thoughts that she is absolutely worthless to any individual in this world because she feels so bad most of the time. She had 2 good days last week and I could hear the bitter sweetness in her voice because she new it wouldn't last, because it never does. And a few days later, she was admitted into the hospital with a bout of pancreatitis. The best thing that could ever happen is that her lab work actually be abnormal so they don't look at her like she is making the pain all up in her head. It has been abnormal and she is getting better. I ask God all the time, why does she have to suffer so much. Why can't she be sick for a little while and get better like lots of other people. Why, Why Why!!!???? Maybe lesson #2 is that she can relate to others like no one else can and bring them comfort because she is not just making up things to say to people, she actually knows how they feel and what they need to hear and maybe that is her work for God. But, being her daughter I wish her work for God could be painting or writing or traveling...something much less debilitating.
Lesson #3. My family and our extended "people" (which branch really far and wide) have enough real love in their hearts to cover the world and back. We had Reese's birthday party last Sunday and I took pictures like I always do. Too many some would say!! But, like usual, I got them developed and was sitting in the car looking at them and a flood of emotion filled my soul when I got to the one with 8 out of the 10 cousins he has. I looked at the picture and it spoke to me so boldly. Look at these kids and how happy they are to be at Reese's birthday party. Look how much they LOVE him. They don't feel that he is any different than any of the rest of them. They don't remember anymore that he was adopted!!! And that really speaks a lot to me about our family and how much we love each other. We love him like there is absolutely nothing different about him. I even forget he has dark skin sometimes. He is just so familiar to look at and he is just Reese. Not Reese from Guatemala, not adopted Reese. Reese my son. And I love my family for being who they are. They couldn't just make love up like that (if that makes sense?) It is who they all are.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Oh, What Fun We Had
They meet again!
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